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Date:2015-07-02 19:48
Subject:Меланхоличное...
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Меланхоличное настроение

Дрозжевое брожение ума.

Я не человек, вероятно растение,

С въевшимся числительным клейма.



Левое, правое направление

Определяю привычно рукой,

Но меланхолии искажение

Азимут снова выбрало свой.


Миша Волк 2
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/28/3030

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Date:2015-07-02 15:53
Subject:а Ты улетела
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Упаду на колени,

На осколки надежды,

Заплеснув боли в душу,

Я тебе расскажу

Как срывался с постели,

Умолял поберечься,

Ну а ты улетала,

Я тебя не виню.

Мое сердце избилось,

Отказалось молиться,

Отказалось встречаться,

Я его разобью.

Мы с тобою простились,

Упорхнули как птицы.

Ну зачем оно бьется?!

Я ему не прощу.

Пусть "мужчины не плачут",

Но сбежать от рыданий,

Разрывающих душу,

Я никак не могу.

Я забуду про счастье,

Ведь не строит страданий

Этот миг, за который

Я тебя не сужу.

Да, проходят минуты,

Собираясь в закаты,

И душа опустела,

Крылья в руки сложив.

Я опять глотну боли,

Закушу шоколадом.

Все, я больше не верю

В твой развенчанный миф.

12.05.2007


Елена Поскрёбышева
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/30/495

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Date:2015-07-02 06:23
Subject:Тоже Музе
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АХ, МУЗА ДАЛЬНИХ СТРАНСТВИЙ ты пошто

меня совсем сердешного забыла?

Пойдем с тобой накатим грамм по сто

за счёт того нетрезвого дебила,



и вспомним, как на дальних поездах

мы рассекали Родины просторы…

Восторги возносились - ОХ и АХ!,

велись в купе под водку разговоры…



Под нами часто плыли облака,

в прогалах редких океан искрился…

В твоей руке была моя рука,

покуда наш этап не завершился…



И вот мы разошлись с тобою, я

пообзавелся брюхом и диваном.

Давай всплакнем, как давние друзья,

по запахам тайги и по туманам.



2008.01.15.


Сергей Судаков
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/15/2347

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Date:2015-07-02 00:53
Subject:Остывшее пламя свечи
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За окном темнота полусонно открыла глаза.

Еле слышно за дверью возникли и смолкли шаги.

По холодной щеке незаметно скатилась слеза,

Неуслышанным криком слилась с завыванием пурги.

Я зашторю окно, из которого слепит луна.

Вслед тебе не взгляну я, забуду, о чем говорил.

Зажигаю свечу, но тепла не заменит она.

Одинокую ночь на прощанье ты мне подарил.

То ли дикая страсть черной кошкой скользнула у ног,

То ли смертная боль стаей воронов в небо взвилась.

Мне хотелось бы выбежать вслед за тобой за порог…

Но холодная сталь мертвой хваткою в руку впилась.

За окошком метель свирепеет, все крики глуша.

И уже все равно… бесполезно, кричи, не кричи.

Из разрезанных вен тонкой струйкой сочится душа…

Как остывшее пламя последней сгоревшей свечи.


Мила Бардинская
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/19/475

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Date:2015-07-01 23:35
Subject:Паутина
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Кафе. Бокал мартини.

Гирлянды. Провода.

Мой взор как паутина.

И губы как беда.



Кругом пустые столики.

Не пятница. Среда.

И где же те соколики?

А, ладно! Не беда…



Глоток. Слезу - в салфетку.

И горькое тепло

Печали прочь уносит

Быстрее, чем метро.



Кафе. Бокал мартини.

Гирлянды. Провода.

Сегодня - как обычно

Вернусь домой. Одна.





19 декабря 2007г.


Люкрас
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/31/1133

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Date:2015-07-01 18:34
Subject:Настала всё же в Январе зима
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Мы все от этой осени устали.

Настала всё же в Январе зима.

И вечера длиннее и темнее стали.

И вновь замучило то «горе от ума».



Мы – русские зимою вечной,

Ту щуку норовим поймать,

Иль в бане или с пьяной речью

Пытаемся друзей познать.



Зимою ровны все дороги,

А дураки сидят все дома.

И пусть мы в тратах так не скромны,

Но на русскую душу не сыщешь ты лома.



Я не историк, не психолог,

Я просто говорю, что вижу.

И мир наш на земле не долог.

Но русских словом не обижу.



Мы очень разны, многолики.

И мне приятно говорить об этом.

Пусть мы немного хамоваты, дики.

Но я считаю нам на пользу это.



И я нейтральна в своих думах

По отношению к соседям.

Ведь русские всегда все в вечных «zoom»ах.

По разным мы дорогам едем.



И скорость нами завладела,

Любовь к езде навечно с нами.

Обгоним всех мы между делом,

И строить будем только сами.



Бердяев, Соловьёв и кто-то там ещё.

Так говорили про Россию скромно.

Не добавляю, ведь я кто?.

Я просто королева, так не скрОмна.




Мария Войтко
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/21/2893

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Date:2015-07-01 16:42
Subject:как-то и глупо и как-то нелепо
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Мы умеем создавать,

Но мы и умеем рушить.

Мы научились мечтать,

И в душе пожар тушить.

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Она ходила по кругу,

В глазах ее была печаль.

Прислушивалась к каждому стуку,

Что была от винтилятора - капель.

Она боролась за свободу,

Но силы были ее на исходе.

Люди смотрят лишь на ее породу,

Но ведь дело-то вовсе и не в породе.




Спутница Строк
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/11/3689

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Date:2015-07-01 07:18
Subject:Десерт
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Снег на рябину

Прилёг сахарной пудрой,

Как вкусен десерт.




Алексеев Виктор
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/08/2495

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Date:2015-06-30 14:47
Subject:Сегодня полная луна...
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Сегодня полная луна.

Как и тогда.

Она безумна и пьяна.

Так же, как я.



И мне без разницы уже

С кем говорить.

Отчаяние мне дало

Свободу быть



Нелепой, глупой и смешной.

И не любимой.

Я все позволила себе.

И все забыла.


Тётя Аля
http://www.stihi.ru/2008/01/10/3120

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Date:2015-06-30 01:17
Subject:Закат
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 Sonnenuntergang



Sonnenuntergang;

Schwarze Wolken ziehn,

O wie schwuel und bang

Alle Winde fliehn!



Durch den Himmel wild

Jagen Blitze, bleich;

Ihr vergaenglich Bild

Wandelt durch den Teich.



Wie gewitterklar

Mein ich dich zu sehn

Und dein langes Haar

Frei im Sturme wehn!





Nikolaus Lenau

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Солнечный закат.

Душно и тревожно.

Носятся ветра.

Гонят тучи черные.



Дико гром гремит.

Молнии летают –

На пруду они

Свет свой отражают.



Словно, это ты

В молнии сверканье –

Волосы твои

Ветер развевает.



 


Александр Таташев
http://www.stihi.ru/2007/12/30/2310

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Date:2014-01-30 00:29
Subject:Ракофф и Стросс
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Отдел корпоративных финансов состоял из 19 человек; Джозеф без промедления уволил семерых.
Она началась во вторник вечером и закончилась в субботу утром, что в дальнейшем стало традицией.
Он в панике добежал до ближайшего таксофона, набрал номер Bank Leu и распорядился ликвидировать свою большую позицию.
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Date:2003-07-24 14:57
Subject:im gonna ask my girlfriend about this..
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Date:2003-04-29 17:01
Subject:complications
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Mood: confused

so things have been going pretty well so far..and i've been happy for the most part..but you know how that goes every once in a while everyone has a set back..and today im just feeling kinda well i dont really know how to put it into words..im just kinda in "limbo" right now..and i dont really like this feeling at all..i wish that someone would come in and tell me what to do and where to go and how to feel and what to say..its not about being submissive..im just tired of my head hurting and im tired of being somewhat bitter and angry at times..its time like these that i really depend of chemicals to try to level out my moods..its not like i want to be like this..cause i really dont..i hate feeling this way..i hate looking at people and feeling like if they say one more fucking word then im just gonna snap..i hate feeling like everyone is against me..i hate being paranoid..i dont know where these feelings are coming from maybe its cause alot of shit has been running thru my head..even into my dreams..maybe its from the frustration of not being able to control anything anymore..i cant even control my heart..which isnt a bad thing..but at times i wish i could just make it stop ..i wish the feelings i have for other people that come from my heart..i wish that sometimes it would simmer down
the other night i had a talk about relationships and what other people in my life mean to me and ive come to the conclusion that the people that i have in my life right now mean everything to me and i *hope* i never do anything for them to leave..i dont think that its possible right now..but you never really know with me..
i had a dream last night that one particular person in my life just walked away ..she just stopped caring and i never saw or heard from her ever again..to my surprise i woke up with my eyes watering..(after that of course when i was supposed to get out of bed i refused too) ive thought about it all day and its starting to scare the shit out of me..cause i dont know what i would do without her..i dont know where i would be right now..i dont know how my life would be if i didnt have her..but at the same time i wish that i didnt feel like i *needed* her..i wish that could have my problems and not feel like its her i have to run too for it to make sense to me..ive become dependant on her and i need to stop doing that..but i dont want her to think that im pulling away for that reason..i just want her to know that i value every moment we have shared together and every conversation we have ever had even if it was just a bitch fest or just laughing..its all knowing that when you talk to someone you know that they care..you can hear it in their voice and see it in their expressions and you can just feel it in the air between us..
maybe its cause i feel a little bit inadequate when it comes to her..cause i dont feel like we measure up equally, which i know i shouldnt even be thinking about that..or have those kinds of thoughts in my head..but at times i think that..i often wonder why it is that shes my friend..and with the same thought im so thankful that i have her in my life..shes done so much for me that i dont know if i will ever be able to repay her in an equal way..

i was told that i basically make myself be someone that im not because of abandonment issues..i do that to try to drive people away..cause im afraid of letting anyone in..those arent the exact words..but thats what i got from it..i can see that some people would see me like that..but what i cant figure out is if its a bad thing..to others i mean..if everyone can spot that..and i also cant figure out what it is that makes me be that way..and why i do it..
maybe this is something that will come to me with time or maybe ill never figure it out..like one of lifes unanswered questions..or hell it could even be that i already know the answer and i just dont want to face it..or even think about ..maybe its a subconscience thing..it is possible that i already know the answer i just need someone else to tell me for me to be able to face the fact that im fake..i dont really want people to see as fake but i think that times i can portray myself as that.

there are lots of times when i wish certain people didnt know me the way they do..i wish that i hadnt shown them alot of me..but now..im thankful..it scares the shit out of me but im still thankful..im happy that even if its just 2 people im happy that they know me..but at times it can be a bad thing :)
especially since they seem to be able to see right thru me when i try to hide things from them..they can see when im sad when i try to put on a "happy face" they can see when im angry when im trying to put on a sad face they can see when something is bothering me when i dont really know that it is...grrrrr i hate that sometimes..but at other times its good to have something pushed to where i know i can talk about it in confidence and know that noone will ever know anything i have ever told them..

blah blah blah..ive just rambled on with random thoughts that have run thru my head the past couple of days..and it probably doesnt make sense to anyone else..but i just wanted to put it out there so that maybe ill stop thinking about it..its worth a shot anyways...we'll see how well it really works.. :)

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Date:2003-04-28 01:24
Subject:hmmm
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entrancing
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your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


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Date:2003-04-16 21:14
Subject:WHY WONT HE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!
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Mood: annoyed

OMG ALL HE EVER DOES IS THROW HIS 2 CENTS IN WHERE IT NEVER FUCKING BELONGS????

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Date:2003-04-12 15:46
Subject:The 10 gay commandments
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1. Thou shalt not kill
2. Thou shalt not sleep with the best friend of someone you already slept with
3. Thou shalt not have a personal ad photo with someone hotter in it
4. Thou shalt not ever give the real reason for anything
5. Thou shalt not pay for things
6. Thou shalt not have a personal ad photo that includes your ex
7. Thou shalt not have sex with the opposite sex
8. Thou shalt not withhold judgment
9. Thou shalt not know anyone's last name
10. Thou shalt never be good enough

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Date:2003-04-12 15:18
Subject:i agree with meko..the questions are strange..so i really dont think this is true..
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Date:2003-04-10 22:15
Subject:*cheers* to getting rid of the bad in my life
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so recently i got rid of some bad things that were in my life..whether they be drugs or family or candy or whatever it may be ..right now im very happy with my decision..
i have become a strong believer in karma..and i do believe that karma came back and bit me in the ass..and i had to do what i had to do to fight back and make it right..so ive made things right or atleast for now..hopefully it will all work out but honestly i think ive done the best thing i could have possibly done..
in case anyone was wondering..i walked away from the drama filled ppl that i call my family..especially my mother...the choice i made for cutting them out of my life is one of the best choices ive ever made ...im so much happier..and knowing that i can go on without having "family drama" in my life..and with everything i know now about my mother..its best that i dont have anything to do with her..or im sure that at some face to face meeting that we might have ill try to strangle the woman..the facts that have been handed to me about my mother and my past literally fucked me up..and drove me to drugs again..but once again cleaned myself up and am actually doing really good so far..its alot easier when your sister isnt pushing the shit in your face..everyone has their down falls and everyone blames it on something or someone..and really all i can blame is myself cause i was weak..even tho there are days when i crave it..i know now that there will always be those days..i will always have those days..for the rest of my life ..its just up to me whether or not i want to fight it off or be weak..i dont know i guess its part of growing up..and right now im done fighting my innerself..and starting to own up to my problems and starting to realize that it was me all along..
thats that..thats my happy news for now..but one thing wont change..ill always be a whore..lol
oh well a white trash whore..hell im proud..hehe..

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Date:2003-04-02 09:15
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Date:2003-03-17 22:15
Subject:one night stands and being a daddy
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Mood: content

been a while..so many new things have happened once again ive moved..imagine that one..but this one is for good..well i say that now so im really hoping ive come into a realization in my life that i need to stop running from everyone that loves me and start having a life with them..im done hiding from everyone..im with my real family the only family i acknowledge as of now..
my "biological" family ...well lets just say ive disowned them and for all the right reasons..i cant believe i even come from them..even tho my mother never had a hand in raising me..but i do carry some of her bad traits ..but on the same note i think i have them under very good control..im trying not to let them out too much..i dont know really what happened..there was about a month where i felt like i removed myself from my own life and just took a step back to watch everything and myself and how i acted and if i was happy or not..and i wasnt..so i removed myself from that situation and removed myself from their lives..im just over all of that bullshit..which is a good thing and i honestly feel no remorse..its a whole nother story
im a daddy again..have a new baby..im so happy about this..shes the most beautiful little girl i have EVER laid eyes on..she is perfect..so small..and is starting to coo and awww..she took my breath away the first time i saw her..i fell in love instantly..so that is where all my time is going now..raising my boys and my lil girl..ive never been happier in my life..i have my family back and this time im happy..honestly happy..its a unique feeling that i dont get often but when i do i try to savor it as much as possible..i love the fact that even tho i have crazy ppl in my family history and i have crazy tendancy's that ppl here just consider me unique and outrageous..maybe its cause i stopped worrying about what ppl think about me..or what they are saying about me..i just dont care anymore..im gonna live my life the way i want to and if anyone has a problem about it well ya know let em talk...it doesnt bother me anymore..nothing really bothers me ive come to a state in my life where im calm and just let things roll off my back
ive met some kickass ppl and some ppl that are just plain assholes and i think that ive learned alot from all of them..so to that Cheers to ya..
thats all for now..
oh yeah the one night stands..yeah well im just getting my groove back on..hehe..its about time anyways..a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do..hehe

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